{Day 18}
Share A Secret About You
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Well if I tell you guys one of my secrets than its not a secret anymore. But since I'm so nice I'll tell you one secret that not many people know about me. Now before I tell this secret I want everyone to know that I hardly ever talk about it. I can count on one hand how many people know this secret and it took me almost 3 years before I even opened my mouth and told people. As of right now my best friend knows and one girl who I am no longer friends with knows. It is taking a lot of courage for me to tell you guys.
My sophomore year of high school was the worst year of my life. I suffered with depression that I told no one about. Not a single person knew. Now I wasn't actually diagnosed with depression by a doctor but I believe that is what I had for a year. All I did was sleep and when I wasn't sleeping that's all I wanted to do. School was extremely hard for me. I was so unhappy going.
I can remember the first day of my sophomore year. My friend and I were walking to the bus and I just started crying that's how bad I didn't want to go. I had little to no friends and every single hour spent in school was hell. There were times in class where I was fighting tears because something had happened or someone had said something to me.
The worst part was I thought about taking my life on multiple occasions. One time in particular is so ethiced into my brain that I feel like it happened yesterday. I am so grateful that I never went ahead with my thoughts. I am so proud of myself for fighting through that time and for being here today.
There are times where I feel myself start to slip back into that person again but I fight it. I refuse to go back to that time. It gets hard but I never give up.
Now you know my deepest darkest secret. You now more than most people in my life!
My sophomore year of high school was the worst year of my life. I suffered with depression that I told no one about. Not a single person knew. Now I wasn't actually diagnosed with depression by a doctor but I believe that is what I had for a year. All I did was sleep and when I wasn't sleeping that's all I wanted to do. School was extremely hard for me. I was so unhappy going.
I can remember the first day of my sophomore year. My friend and I were walking to the bus and I just started crying that's how bad I didn't want to go. I had little to no friends and every single hour spent in school was hell. There were times in class where I was fighting tears because something had happened or someone had said something to me.
The worst part was I thought about taking my life on multiple occasions. One time in particular is so ethiced into my brain that I feel like it happened yesterday. I am so grateful that I never went ahead with my thoughts. I am so proud of myself for fighting through that time and for being here today.
There are times where I feel myself start to slip back into that person again but I fight it. I refuse to go back to that time. It gets hard but I never give up.
Now you know my deepest darkest secret. You now more than most people in my life!
xoxo,
Lauren
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